never, ever

what a hard, dark spot. All parts being holding me for so long with their own way. Let see how fate bring all mess. Nice view to look how suffered a girl who wanting everyone she love can see her with those pebbles trying to change ‘how bad’ to be ‘how good’.

Useless. Every mistakes easily come down to be the one who is true. Late to realize what I’ve done just give all pain. I wasn’t about to blab. Now screams are clueless.

Every words that they’re saying only blame, that the reasons can’t safe me anymore. Like I’m under a heavy big storms, I’m spotted that very tall tree. And I would go missing ‘till the sun goes down. I would go hide up there, where everyone would never find me.

Just let them looking for me and scream, then I’ll questioned everyone, “what you would do? Huh? Couldn’t you see at the past right there I was in you? Being crazy to be lost my whole worth in the world, lost everyone who used to safe and treat me well.

Walking through between two hard choices. Then slowly things got worse when nobody can’t see how hurts I am.

All that I know now I don’t know how to be something you miss. I don’t wanna give up. No. Never, ever. Not until everyone see me. Not until they know what justify means.